A Hundred Horses by Sarah Lean, 215 pp, RL 4

I almost didn't read A Hundred Horses by Sarah Lean. For a glimpse into my decision making process when it comes to choosing a book for review, scroll down. But first, A Hundred Horses

When we first meet narrator, eleven-year-old Nell Green, she is at an after school drama program and in trouble for trying to repair a string of lights on her own. Things go from bad to worse for Nell when her mother tells her that she'll be spending the two weeks of her Spring vacation in the country with her Aunt Liv and her little cousins she has never met. Sad and lonely, Nell feels like she has no say over her over scheduled life. Maybe that's why, when she discovers the mechanical carousel that her father built for her shortly before he left, never to be heard from again, in an old brown suitcase, she secrets it with her to Aunt Liv's. But, whatever Nell hoped to hang onto for herself is gone in a flash when a galloping horse and mysterious rider startle her and the rider disappears with the carousel in the suitcase.

From that moment on, Sarah Lean weaves a delicate and masterful story of two girls, both seemingly alone in the world, lonely and hoping for the promised magic, real or otherwise, of horses to come through for them. As Nell slowly warms up to an Aunt and cousins she never knew, she begins to open her eyes to life on a farm, life with animals and life with people. She also slowly begins to open her eyes and her heart to Angel Weston, a half-feral, parentless cypher who came into this world by surprise, on a nearby farm in the stable of a horse named Belle. At first, Angel flits in and out of A Hundred Horses, her purpose uncertain. But, like the waxing moon, an image that is repeated often in this layered novel, Angel's history and her motives are slowly revealed and her version of the legend of a hundred horses and the reasons for thefts she commits gradually make sense to Nell, who says near the final chapters of the book, "I realized that I had been lonely for a long time. And I only knew that because I didn't feel like that anymore. Because of Angel. Because we'd found the things about us that weren't different."

Another lovely metaphorical image that Lean threads throughout A Hundred Horses is that of an angel, specifically an angel losing and finding her wings. The carousel that Nell's father made by hand that she finds early on in the story is missing the angelic "tin girl who stood on top of the carousel with her arms out and her head back as if she was about to fly." The missing tin girl seems to speak to Nell in a way that leads Nell to uncover parts of herself that she has hidden away. Then, there is the girl named Angel who, Nell's cousin insists, just might be the celestial being she is named for. It is Angel herself who crafts pair of replacement wings made from the feathers of Aunt Rita's geese. And it is wings, wings that just might be real, that are uncovered in a very surprising place at the end of the novel, bringing in a wisp of magic that some readers might even miss. Even without this magical possibility, A Hundred Horses is a movingly transformative story about two children who find the courage to reach out to friends, family and family friends for connection, nurturing and support that they have long gone without. That said, I am an adult and bringing my adult perspective to this story, which I found very moving. Young readers will take away something else from A Hundred Horses, no doubt, but I do know that subtly, maybe even subconsciously, Lean's story of love, connection and responsibility, whether with a human or a horse, will resonate with them. As Nell says when pondering Angel's version of the legend of the hundred horses, "And I thought about magic and fairy tales. They are not real. It's just that beautiful things make you feel full up inside. As if nothing is missing. And that feels like a miracle." While A Hundred Horses is not exactly a fairy tale, I do believe that readers, young and old, will recognize the beauty in this story and feel "full up inside" as well.

Sometimes I am surprised by what guides me to read a book, and sometimes I am surprised by the books that I read. I am very fortunate to receive review copies of books from publishers months in advance of the release date for a book. I can't read and review everything I am sent to my personal standards, so I make "yes," "no," and "maybe" stacks. A Hundred Horses by Sarah Lean made it into my "maybe" stack when I received it a few months back and was about to shift into the "no" stack when I read Jillian Dunham's review of A Hundred Horses in the New York Times Book Review on January 10. As is sometimes the case with the New York Times Book Review, a review, good or bad, doesn't always capture the essence of a book, which turned out to be the case with Dunham's positive review. Yet, there was something in her brief description of the novel that made me pause and reconsider and I'm so glad I did.

Source: Review Copy

Also by Sarah Lean and newly in paperback:

A Dog Called Homeless

Winner of the 2013 Schneider Family Award, established in 2004 to honor an author or illustrator for a book that embodies an artistic expression of the disability experience for a child and adolescent audiences. A Dog Called Homeless is the story of Cally, a fifth grader who, a year after her mother's death, has stopped speaking. When her family moves to a new apartment, Cally meets 11-year-old Sam who is deaf and blind. Through her friendship with Sam and the mysterious appearance of a dog, Cally finds her voice.


The Fault in Our Stars, written by John Green, 313 pp, AND This Star Won't Go Out by Esther Earl, Lori Earl and Wayne Earl, 384 pp

I am reposting my review from January of 2012 because today, January 28, 2014, marks the publication of This Star Won't Go Out by Esther Earl, Lori Earl and Wayne Earl. For those of you who don't know, The Fault in Our Stars is dedicated to Esther Grace Earl, who died of thyroid cancer in 2010 at the age of 16. Please scroll to the bottom to read about this remarkable young woman and the journals, fiction, letters, sketches and family photographs as well as essays and commentary from friends, a journal of her illness kept by her parents and an introduction by John Green that make up this amazing book.

In John Green's newest book, The Fault in Our Stars, the title taken from Shakespeare's Julius Caesar (The fault, dear Brutus, is not in our stars / But in ourselves) the main character Hazel Grace Lancaster shares that the only thing worse than being a kid with cancer is having a kid with cancer. As a mother, I struggled to read this book and I thought long and hard about whether or not I should even review it. John Green is already an established, respected, award winning author with plenty of publicity and legions of fans, fans who pre-ordered this book in such massive numbers that it shot to the top of bestselling books at Amazon.com and Barnes & Noble.com a matter of days after an official release date was announced, months from the actual publication date. These pre-ordering fans also prompted the publisher to push up the release date by four months and were rewarded by Green (myself included) with a signed copy.  So what do I have to add to the buzz surrounding this book? Maybe some of you reading this have never heard of John Green and will do your children or the children you work with a tremendous favor by introducing them to this remarkable author. Maybe you know someone with cancer or have cancer yourself. If so, I think this book will really mean a lot to you or those you give it to. For me, The Fault in Our Stars was a bit like living through 313 pages of one of my worst nightmares. However, if I am going to read a book about children with cancer, there is no other author's book I would choose to read than John Green's. But first, because I read this book as a parent with all the anxiety and worry that that brings, I thought I'd get the perspective of an actual teenager, my daughter, who was able to read this book for what it truly is, a romance:

I don't want to say that "The Fault in Our Stars" is the most romance I've had in my life in many months, but it's true. John Green is the master of teen romance novels, knowing exactly where, when, and how to tug heartstrings. It is guaranteed that all female teen readers will fall for Augustus, and while I can't assume anything about the male teen readers I'd go as far as to say that Hazel has a personality that any guy would be lucky to find in a potential wife/girlfriend/best friend. Us teenagers tend to... I don't want to be too general or too harsh here, but we tend to over-exaggerate things that are actually insignificant, especially when it comes to relationships. Green knows this, but also knows how to save Hazel from the plight of the angsty, whiny, helpless protagonist too often seen recently (cough Bella Swan cough). Hazel and Augustus instantly develop the kind of bond that I associate only with 20+ years of marriage, hence avoiding the inevitably awkward beginning-of-relationship phase and jumping right into the good stuff. I guarantee you will be crying by the time you finish this book, not just because of the plot but because of the perfection that seeps from every word.

Thanks, Zoey! Now my thoughts...

In a sense, you could say that John Green's writing is a little formulaic. The thing is, this formula is like sugar (in the best way possible) and once you taste it you want more. This is not to say that his books are the same thing over and over or empty literary calories, but you can always count on Green for thoughtful, witty, verbally astute characters who are outsiders of one sort or another and capable of ideas and actions that are both empathetic and philosophical. The Fault in Our Stars is narrated by Hazel, a sixteen year old with thyroid cancer that has spread to her lungs and weakened them, making an oxygen tank her constant companion. Green is a master at getting inside his character's heads, male or female. Hazel has been sick for three years and had one hospitalization she almost didn't survive. Cancer and illness are an every day, every minute, part of her life and she is weary from but accepting of the way it has circumscribed her world. Above all else, she seems to be remarkably sensitive to how her cancer has affected her parents' lives, especially after overhearing her mother, when she thought Hazel was going to die, grieve the fact that she "wasn't going to be a mother any more." Hazel's mom has made her cancer and keeping her alive her job and Hazel is sensitive and respectful of this, trying to give her parents as much time with her as possible. This is probably why, when her mother fears she is depressed, she grudgingly agrees to go back to attending the cancer support group for teens and this is where she meets the handsome and charming Augustus Waters who seems to be unable to take his eyes off her.

Augustus tells the group that he is seventeen and "had a touch of osteosarcoma a year and a half ago, but I'm just hear today at Isaac's request." Isaac is about to loose his other eye to cancer. When the group leader asks Gus how is he feeling he replies, "Oh, I'm grand. I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend." Gus, once a high school basketball star, has lost part of his leg to the cancer but seems to have a remarkably optimistic attitude. When asked to share his fears with the group, Gus says he fears oblivion. In an uncharacteristic move for her, Hazel raises her hand and repeats a quote from her favorite book, An Imperial Affliction by Peter Van Houten about the inevitability of oblivion. Augustus' fear of oblivion, of leaving this world without leaving a mark on it, Hazel's obsession with the novel and the relationship that the two embark upon make up the backbone of The Fault in Our Stars. Cancer is always present, from the medical treatments the characters undergo to the "Cancer Perks" (their words) they receive to the unexpected hospital stays. What makes this book readable and worth reading is the humor and contemplative nature of his characters. Gus, besides unleashing no end of blind man jokes on Isaac, chides Hazel for using her wish from the Genie Foundation on a trip to Disney World. The two make constant jokes about cancer, missing limbs, first person shooter games and Gus's bad driving. But, they also share moving insights and lyrical observations that make you stop and think. Even though they know they are dying and may not live to adulthood, Hazel and Augustus know how to recognize and enjoy what is beautiful and important in life and, and I know this sounds goofy, each other.

During her first date with Augustus as he is telling her his history with cancer, Hazel looks at him and thinks, "I really, really, really liked him. I liked the way his story ended with someone else. I liked his voice. I like that he took existentially fraught free throws. I liked that he was a tenured professor in the Department of Slightly Crooked Smiles with a dual appointment in the Department of Having a Voice That Made my Skin Feel More Like Skin." In a passage that shows that Green is still very much in touch with his inner teen (and, if you know anything about him you know that he is very much in touch with his frequently fervent teen fans) Hazel says, "My favorite book, by a wide margin, was An Imperial Affliction, but I didn't like to tell people about it. Sometimes, you read a book and it fills you with this weird evangelical zeal, and you become convinced that the shattered world will never be put back together unless and until all living humans read the book. And then there are books like An Imperial Affliction, which you can't tell people about, books so special and rare and yours that advertising your affection feels like a betrayal." The narrator of Hazel's favorite book, Anna, is a teenager and cancer patient who dies, the author ending the book mid-sentence, mid-narrative, mid-story. Of Van Houten Hazel say he was "the only person I'd ever come across who seemed to (a) understand what it's like to be dying, and (b) not have died." Knowing what happens after Anna's story ends, what happens to her mother, her mother's possibly crooked boyfriend and her pet hamster, becomes a driving force for Gus and Hazel. This makes sense and is another sign of Green's subtle genius and beauty. Getting the end of Anna's story is much easier, emotionally if not literally, than finding out the end of their own stories.

I want to leave you with a few of my favorite passages from The Fault in Our Stars, writing that made it possible for me to keep reading this heartbreaking book.

Gus's parents are very fond of uplifting sayings that the call "Encouragements," and have them all over their home, on pillows, plaques and needlepoint pictures. After reading one that says, Without Pain, How Can We Know Joy? Hazel thinks,

This is an old argument in the field of Thinking About Suffering, and its stupidity and lack of sophistication could be plumbed for centuries, but suffice it to say that the existence of broccoli does not in any way affect the taste of chocolate.

Talking to Isaac about the cruelty of his girlfriend of two years breaking up with him right before losing his other eye because she "couldn't handle it," Hazel admits,

I was thinking about the word handle, and all the unholdable things that get handled.

In what strikes me as one of the most beautiful lines in the book, Hazel notes that, as Gus reads to her from  An Imperial Affliction, she "fell in love the way you fall asleep: slowly, and then all at once."

Finally, towards the end of the book when Hazel and her dad, having just read An Imperial Affliction himself, are discussing the differences between defeatism and honesty and the meaning of life. He shares the story of his college math professor who, while talking about fast Fourier transforms, stopped and said, "Sometimes is seems the universe wants to be noticed." Hazel's dad goes on to say,

That's what I believe. I believe the universe wants to be noticed. I think the universe is improbably biased toward consciousness, that it rewards intelligence in part because the universe enjoys its elegance being observed. And who am I, living in the middle of history, to tell the universe that it - or my observation of it - is temporary?

 For an enlightening, if staid, interview with John Green about The Fault in Our Stars, visit Weekend Edition Saturday. For a review of Green's book Paper Towns, click the title. Although I haven't reviewed it her yet, my favorite John Green book is one he authored with the amazing David Levithan, Will Grayson, Will Grayson.

The Catitude and Nerdfighters don't need me to tell them about This Star Won't Go Out, but maybe there are a few parents and teachers and other bookivores who are not on tumblr and will gain something from the information I have cobbled together here. Sally Lodge wrote a comprehensive article in Publishers Weekly last year talking about Esther, John Green and the way that This Star Won't Go Out came to be. There is also a really wonderful booktrailer that is very informative, moving and inspirational, below. And, if you can still see the screen through your tears, watch John Green's tribute to her titled, Rest in Awesome, Esther, which will also give you a glimpse into how incredible this person was and what she inspired in everyone she came into contact with. Then, click the link under the banner that will take you to This Star Won't Go Out Foundation, a non-profit organization dedicated to serving families with children diagnosed with life-threatening cancer. In 2011, TSWGO gave out 75 gifts totaling $125,000 to help families suffering from the hardships of childhood cancer. The fundraisers that were organized all over the world are incredibly creative and reflect the spirit of Esther.


ALA Awards for 2014 - The Newbery, the Caldecott and more: Kate Di Camillo and Brian Floca take top honors!

Flora & Ulysses: The Illustrated Adventures 
by Kate Di Camillo, illustrated by K.G. Campbell. You can read my review here.


One Came Home by Amy Timberlake
I've had this book for a while now, review to come! 

The Year of Billy Miller by Kevin Henkes

Doll Bones by Holly Black
I have wanted to read this for a while now, review to come!

Paperboy by Vince Vawter

Locomotive by Brian Floca

Journey by Aaron Becker
Read my review here.

Mr. Wuffles by David Wiesner
Read my review here.

Flora & the Flamingo by Molly Idle
Read my review here.

The Watermelon Seed by Greg Pizzoli. Review to come!

Penny and Her Marble by Kevin Henkes 
Read my review here.

Ball by Mary Sullivan

A Big Guy Stole My Ball by Mo Willems. 
Read my review of the Elephant & Piggie books here.

This award is a new addition to the American Library Association’s Media Youth Awards. The award is donated by Dr. Katherine Schneider, and honors an author or illustrator for a book that embodies an artistic expression of the disability experience for child and adolescent audiences. 

A Splash of Red: The Life and Times of Horace Pippin by Jen Bryant, illustrated by Melissa Sweet

Handbook for Dragon Slayers by Merrie Haskell
I've had this book for a while now, review to come! 

This award recognizes outstanding books for young adults and children by African American authors and illustrators that reflect the African American experience.

Lifetime Achievement Award
Frederick and Patricia McKissack

New Talent Award
Theodore Taylor III

Author Winner
P.S. Be Eleven by Rita Garcia Williams
Read my review here.

Author Honors
March: Book 1 by John Lewis and Andrew Aydin

Darius & Twig by Walter Dean Myers

Words with Wings by Nikki Grimes

Illustrator Winner
Knock Knock: My Dad's Dream for Me by Daniel Beaty, illustrated by Brian Collier

Illustrator Honors
Nelson Mandela by Kadir Nelson

This award is for a Latino/Latina writer and illustrator whose work best portrays, affirms and celebrates the Latino cultural experience with an outstanding work of literature for children and youth.

Author Winner
Yaqui Delgado Wants to Kick Your Ass by Meg Medina

 Author Honors
The Living by Matt de la Peña 
Review to come!

The Lightning Dreamer: Cuba's Greatest Abolitionist by Margarita Engle

 Illustrator Winner
Niño Wrestles the World by Yuyi Morales

Illustrator Honors

Maria Had a Little Llama by Angela Dominguez

Pancho Rabbit and the Coyote: A Migrant's Tale by Duncan Tonatiuth

Tito Puente mambo King by Monica Brown, illustrated by Rafael Lopez

This award honors an author as well as a specific body or his/her work that has proven popular over a period of time.  It recognizes an author's work in helping adolescents become aware of themselves and addressing questions about their role and importance in relationships, society and the world.

This award is given to a book that exemplifies literary excellence in Young Adult Literature.

Midwinterblood by Marcus Sedgewick

Navigating Early by Clare Vanderpool 
winner of the Newbery for Moon Over Manifest in 2011.

Maggot Moon by Sally Gardner

The Kingdom of Little Wounds by Susann Cokal

Eleanor & Park by Eleanor Rowell
Read my review of this amazing book here.

 This award is presented to English language books that have exceptional merit relating to the gay/lesbian/bisexual/transgendered experience.

Fat Angie by EE Charlton-Trujillo

two boys kissing by David Levithan
I just finished reviewing this stunning book, which Rainbow Rowell recommended here  last year.

Better Nate than Ever by Tim Federle

Branded by the Pink Triangle 
by Ken Setterington

This award goes to the producer of the best audio book produced for children and/or young adults, available in English, in the United States.

Scowler by Daniel Kraus, narrated by Kirby Heybourne, 
produced by Listening Library

Eleanor & Park by Eleanor Rowell, narrated by Rebecca Lowman and Sunil Mahotra,
produced by Listening Library, an imprint of Random House

Matilda by Roald Dahl, narrated by Kate Winslet, 
produced by Penguin Audio

Creepy Carrots by Aaron Reynolds, narrated by James Naughton,
produced by Weston Woods

Better Nate than Ever by Tim Federle, narrated by Tim Federle, 
produced by Simon & Schuster Audio

Award is for Outstanding Children's Books originally published in a Language other than English.

The Winner

Mister Orange by Truss Matti

My Father's Arms Are a Boat by Stein Erik Lunde and Øyvind Torster, translated by Kari Dickson

The Bathing Costume by Charlotte Moundic, illustrated by Olivier Tallec, translated by Claudia Zoe Bedrick

The War Within these Walls by Aline Sax, translated by Laura Watkinson

Robert F. Siebert Informational Medal
Parrots over Puerto Rico by Cindy Kane and Susan Roth

Locomotive by Brian Floca

The Mad Potter: George E. Orr Eccentric Genius by Jan Greenberg & Sandra Jordan

Look Up! Bird-Watching in Your Own Back Yard by Annette LeBlanc Cate

A Splash of Red: The Life and Times of Horace Pippin by Jen Bryant, illustrated by Melissa Sweet

The Alex Awards are given to ten books written for adults that have special appeal to young adults, ages 12 through 18. The winning titles are selected from the previous year's publishing.

RELISH: My Life in the Kitchen
a graphic novel by Lucy Kinsey

Help for the Haunted by John Searles

The Death of Bees by Lisa O'Donnell

Lexicon by Max Berry

The Universe Versus Alex Woods by Gavin Extence

Mother, Mother by Koren Zailckas

Brewster: A Novel by Mark Slouka

The Lives of Tao by Wesley Chu

Golden  Boy by Abigail Tarttelin

The Sea of Tranquility by Katja Millay